Light In My Darkness

These incidents might sound silly to write a post about, but it means so much to me.

April – May are the months where students at a university would be making amends with all that they should have been studying throughout the year. These two months are crucial because that’s when a year’s worth of information is cramped into the system. Well, this is true in my case at least.
I had to submit my final year’s dissertation on the 27th of April and had an exam the following day. The week after that held three other exams for me, on consecutive days.

As I was returning home from my university’s building at 11 pm on the 24th of April (Friday) after an intense revision session, I felt my legs get tighter with every step. I got home and saw that my legs had developed some bright red lumps and it took me a while to take my jeans off.
I called my friend and told her about what was happening, (this was around 1 am now) and she suggested I called the doctor out-of-hours. The doctor told me to come down to the hospital within the hour. I was a bit hesitant knowing the amount of revision I had to do the next day and that I needed a good night’s rest to achieve what I had planned. I returned home at 5 am and then watched the sun rise while filling in a deferral form for my exams and dissertation as my condition got worse.

Each day, week after week, I grew fainter, my joints ached and I was forced to stay in bed, unable to do anything on my own. I felt useless. I could have been done with my finals, but there I was, in bed, in pain, in tears. I could feel my heart beat in my feet (if that’s even possible). I could feel nothing but pain and a strong realisation that I’ve let everyone down.

Three weeks later, I was picking up the pieces and fixing myself up only to learn that my Grandma had passed away. I still remember my deep-seated father who pretended like nothing had happened, just so that I wouldn’t fall back into the whorl of gloom. When I told him that I received messages from friends back in Bahrain consoling me, he still maintained his calm. That’s when I knew that my old man needed me, now more than ever. So, I decided to take the next flight from Birmingham to India (because that’s where my Grandma was).

On the 5th of June, knowing that I had developed an auto-immune disease called erythema nodosum, I was now returning back to Coventry with something heavier than my luggage. The disease explained the red lumps, joint pain, fever, headaches, and everything terrible.
Messy May had gone by and the month of June was taunting me. I had to start revising for my exams (again) and to complete my dissertation that I worked so hard on. I had to submit my year’s worth of research for my undergrad degree (a.k.a. ‘disso’ as commonly known by students), with a heavy heart and the fact that I could not complete it according to the standards I had set for myself.

It took me some time to recuperate from life’s unpleasant reality check. The next thing I remember was frantically multitasking revision for two exams that were on consecutive days (so convenient) with the touch-ups for my dissertation. I know, I know, I had loads of time on my hands, but the right frame of mind? Don’t think so.

At this point, I gave up, I cried, I lost hope, I looked up to the sky and surrendered my all, and this is when everything fell into its place. You see, this wonderful God I believe in, gave me a chance to fight own my battle with every cell in my body, but when my strength failed me, and when I asked for a tiny portion of His strength, He clothed me with garments of salvation (Isaiah 61.10) and met my needs according to His riches (Philippians 4.19).

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.
10 That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. – 2 Corinthians 12:9-11 🙂

From Birmingham to Delhi

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New Blog, New Experiences!

Hello Lovely Followers!

I’m proud to announce that I’ve created another blog that would feature everyday experiences of my life in attempt to connect with those out there who feel the same.

I’ve named it after myself because I couldn’t think of anything more apt. I did give the subtitle of ‘One Clumsy Lady, Many Inspiring Stories’ which I hope i’ll be able to prove over time. (The clumsiness will always remain, no doubt!)

I have just posted my first post and I’m excited to be posting more in the near future!

Here’s the link: https://kritikadavid.wordpress.com/

Much love to all x
– K

CEO, Strategic Assistants, and their day! – Part 2

Read for story (Part 1): https://kaythedavid.wordpress.com/2014/09/17/ceo-strategic-assistants-and-their-day/

So, what does this story actually relate to? May not be the best example, but it gets you thinking.

Let’s give the CEO, and his two Strategic Assistants a real role now:

CEO = God, Strategic Assistants = People

Now let’s see how this goes:

Our God calls unto us to make a decision about our life that would obviously have an impact on us. He lets YOU make choices; which is known as Free Will, it’s promised in the Bible. Knowing that God our Father does have the ultimate say in our lives. He knows what you truly need instead of what you temporarily want. He asks you for your ‘remarkable input’ which is a Prayer.

In their hearts humans plan their course, but the Lord establishes their steps. – Proverbs 16:9

In the framework of our little story, we see two strategic assistants; which implies that there are two people influencing the decision-making process.

Now relating that to real-life:

Senior Strategic Assistants = Christian Couple

Say, a Christian couple have to make a decision that would impact their lives. They have their feet firmly planted in God. They both think they know what’s best. They both have a difference of opinion. This leads them towards a disagreement. Further leading towards a tenacious argument. The wife’s in tears, the husband’s voice somehow keeps getting louder, the wife tries to lower his voice levels and holds onto his arms. The husband now thinks his wife’s getting aggressive, and decides to push her from him.

God’s watching them, but ‘holds Himself back‘ . He lets them take steps according to what they think they should do – FREE WILL. Also, because they’re both adults, they know how to handle themselves.

When the couple reach a point where they know they’ve had enough. They walk away from each other. They go to separate rooms, and contemplate on what just happened.

The wife starts to question God – Why would you do this to me? Where have I gone wrong? Are you not a God of your word? This is UNFAIR! I don’t believe in you anymore. This has happened too many times to us. Why God, why?

The husband on the other hand is completely blank. He can’t think straight. He just wants to distract himself. But for how long?
He then ponders upon his faith in Christ. He starts to doubt it. How can a God so strong, allow them to be weak? The three steps he took in coming closer to God, has now made him take seven steps away from Christ.

The couple then decide to come out, and speak to each other. The questions that were on their minds individually, had now become something they spoke out loud to each other. Both clashed on the same thing – Why would God do this to us if He loves us? But the question they should be asking is – Why would we do this to each other when we love each other?

Slowly, their “Firm Faith in Christ” turns into an uncertain belief. They walk away from God, blaming Him for all what went wrong, and leaving behind all the good things He has done for them.

…“Why are you angry, and why has your face fallen? If you do well, will you not be accepted? And if you do not do well, sin is crouching at the door. Its desire is for you, but you must rule over it.” – Genesis 4:6-7

This is the problem with not only Christians, but people as a whole – They tend to give up if one goes wrong, neglecting a hundred that went right.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths. – Proverbs 3:5-6

“For I know the plans I have for you”, declares the Lord, “plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.” – Jeremiah 29:11

“What no eye has seen,
What no ear has heard,
and what no human mind has conceived”
the things God has prepared for those who love him 1 Corinthians 2:9 

CEO, Strategic Assistants, and their day!

The CEO of a renowned company calls in his two best Senior Strategic Assistants to help in finalising an important decision on which the company lies.
Both assistants have remarkable input to the process. Not long before they start arguing on who’s suggestion is better, and why.

The CEO watches them argue, but holds himself back. He knows they’re both adults, and they can handle the situation maturely. Then assistant A gets a little aggressive; he throws a file of papers at assistant B. As an obvious consequence, assistant B decides to push assistant A.

The CEO has had enough, and asks them both to stop. Unfortunately, assistants A and B have their pride to hold onto. They kept assaulting each other.

Disturbed by their behaviour, the CEO now decides to kick them out of his office, so that they could reflect on how ridiculously they’ve behaved.

After an hour, the CEO is less upset, and calls them back in. He asks if they had anything to say.

Both assistants A and B blame it all on the CEO for bringing them into his office in the first place.

So what does this story actually mean?

Will post my view tomorrow 🙂

Link to Part 2: https://kaythedavid.wordpress.com/2014/09/18/ceo-strategic-assistants-and-their-day-part-2/